an excerpt from
My Mozart
by Juliet Waldron
Copyright © 2012 by Juliet Waldron and published here with her permission
    "Most painfully affected of all by Mozart's fatal illness was Fraulein Nanina Gottlieb..."
From Joseph Deiner's Memoirs,
 related at Vienna, 1856
*
Chapter One
"Mozart, Ich liebe dich. I love you. Love you."
"Come here, Nanina Nightingale. Come and give your poor old Maestro some of your ‘specially sugary sugar."
My  mouth on his--the friction produced warmth and sweetness, with a  decided undertone of the expensive brandy he liked, flowing from his  tongue to mine. I slid my arms across the brocade of his jacket, none  too clean these days, and swayed a slender dancer's body against him.
Let  me assure you that my sophistication was assumed. It really doesn't  matter--then, or now. I was young, foolish, and drowning in love. I was  seventeen. He was thirty five. 
He  had once been boyishly agile, doing handsprings over chairs, turning  cartwheels of joy at a prima donna’s kiss or a perfect performance of  his own celestial music. He was never tall, and was, like most men of  his age, working on a bit of a belly. Still, he kept more or less in  shape by a daily regimen which included running from bailiffs, dashing  out the back doors of taverns to avoid payment, and climbing in and out  of the bedroom windows of adventurous (and talented) musical  gentlewomen.
I  believed he knew everything--that he could see right through me with  those bright blue eyes. He probably could. He'd been my music  master--and, more--my deity, ever since I'd met him, in my ninth year.
His  jacket, now spotted and stained, must have been fine enough to wear in  the presence of the Emperor. Bright blue, it perfectly matched his eyes.  I can still feel the fabric sliding under my fingers as my arms passed  over his shoulders and around his neck.
I  can still see him  a woolly frizz of blonde hair, long, aquiline  nose--a ram that had once been an angel. Sometimes, when he was loving  me in some exquisitely naughty way and joyfully smiling as he did it, I  could almost see horns.
So  you will understand exactly how I loved him, so that you will know that  it was a real passion, I'll tell you that I adored the feel of him, the  smell of him, the taste of him. They've tried to turn him into a  tinkling porcelain angel, but I'm here to tell you, here and now--he was  not.
Mozart's  eyes were big, slightly protuberant, and as I’ve said, so blue.  Alarming, those eyes! Once they'd shone with the pure light of genius,  radiant and blissful as a summer noonday. Lately, they were simply  wasted. My adored Maestro was mostly either drunk or hung over.
He'd  fallen from grace. Everyone knew it. Creditors hounded him. There were  too many wild parties, not enough money.  His wife had given up coping,  had gone back to the Baden spa where she had an on-going romance with a  big, handsome Major. 
And  who could blame her? Pretty Constance, in the last ungainly stages of  yet another pregnancy, fleeing Vienna after a winter of freezing and  begging for handouts...
Even  a seventeen year old idolater could recognize her defection for simple  self preservation. I didn't judge her. I didn't judge myself. I was  simply glad to have her out of the way. When she was gone, he was  restless, at loose ends, spending most of his time hanging around our  theater. Of course, nothing could have suited me better.
Oh,  I can still hear my pained Mama lecturing, telling me all about  Wolfgang's debts, his drinking, and his wife. If I must go whoring, why  couldn't I be sensible, make it pay?
Naturally,  I knew that the lady who filled his mind was one of his damned piano  pupils. She was struggling with a very real fear of her husband and with  her own natural chastity. Dear Mozart always imagined that if a lady  played his music with "taste and feeling", she belonged to him in a  deeper and more complete sense than she could ever belong to a mere  husband. The notion proved in every case disappointing, and, in the  final exercise, fatal.
He  often held forth upon "acting like a Kapellmeister/ dressing like a  Kapellmeister", long after he'd been ejected both from the court and the  wider world of gentlemanly convention. When sufficiently drunk, he used  to amuse everyone at The Serpent, clowning with a violin like some  impoverished, itinerant musiker.
One  night, a pair of Englishmen who'd been dining there dropped a handful  of kreutzers and asked in broken German if he knew the way to "the house  of Kapellmeister Mozart." As the regulars roared, Mozart answered with  the filthiest English curse he knew and haughtily stalked away, leaving  the money on the floor. The waiter, Joseph Deiner, God bless him,  scooped it up and applied it to Mozart's perennial bill.
* * *
It's  hard to tell how you will like a true story, but to my mind, all the  best tales grow. Have patience. This, I assure you, is a love story. 
* * *
I  was born a musiker, a poor, pretty, talented girl who could have become  an actress or a singer, a dancer or a prostitute. When I was seventeen,  with no parents and working for Emmanual Schikaneder, I'm afraid the  latter was the fate most likely.
Today  my beauty and voice are gone. Memories are all that remain. Except for  my old friend Joseph, it was lonely for a very long time, but lately  troops of well meaning Volk have been knocking on my door, bringing  little presents and asking questions about the old days.
"Fraulein Gottlieb," they say, "you were the Magic Flute's first Pamina. Tell us about the way it was. Tell us about the great genius, Mozart."
I  hardly dare speak. Once well begun, this old woman might ramble  straight through from beginning to end. My adored, long dead Maestro has  become famous, a kind of Martyr to Art. I have no wish to stain the  marble purity of the image that his wife, with so much skill and  determination, has spent the last thirty years creating. I understand  the theater of life, this proscenium beneath the arching sky.  Sometimes--paradoxically--honor requires a lie.
So,  to such visitors, I say the obvious, about how poorly his talent served  him while he lived. Then they reply, as if this makes up for the pain:  "His music survives." 
For  a performer like me, it's the opposite. In that most present of present  moments, we are the lark of song, the erotic geometry of dance, the  drum beat of declamation. For a performer there's nothing beyond the  flashing now, and when we grow old all that is left for us is the rusty  rumination of some aged member of a long ago audience.
This  being so, I'll tell you who I am, or rather who I was: Fraulein Anna  Gottlieb, Nanina to my long dead friends. I was a performer once  admired, first as a dancer, then as a singer, and last, when I grew  older, as a comedienne who had learned all about getting belly laughs  from those two great clowns of the Volksoper stage, Barbara Gerl and  Emmanuel-The-Devil-In-Human-Form Schikaneder. I was the darling of the  fickle Viennese for years. 
* * *
My  parents performed in Vienna and died there, and I grew up in that city a  performer, as close to a free woman as it was possible to be. Papa was a  violinist; Mama was a dancer. Their marriage was the kind often made in  the "immoral" last century and quintessentially Viennese. It was a  marriage of convenience. 
Mama  had, for a few shining years, been a star of the Court ballet. She said  quite frankly that of all the men who had been sleeping with her, Papa  had been the only one willing to marry her when she'd discovered she was  pregnant. My mother, once a member of the elite Court Figuranti,  claimed my birth ruined her career.
"After  you have a baby, it's as if you've been anchored to the ground," she'd  complain. "You just can't do those floating leaps anymore."
Whenever  mother told me this, she'd run her long hands reflectively down her  sides. She was not, by any stretch of the imagination, fat, but she was  continually in mourning for some lost, youthful perfection.
"Poor  child!" She’d stroke my dark curls, so unlike her own. "Of all the rich  Papa's you might have had! Instead, the capricious womb opens for the  seed of a poor musiker, a fellow I lay with in pity." Clearly the Fate  in control of my destiny had done right. I loved my Papa and he loved me.
I  think he would have loved me no matter who had fathered me, but happily  for both of us, I strongly favored him. We were both small, slender,  pale brunettes, with thick, curly hair. To Papa, I was always  "Princess." Like all young creatures, I was pretty enough, although I  didn't have the particular flash that Nature gives to blondes.
A woman the world judged beautiful, my lovely Mama could make conditions. She was quick to slap, quick to scream and scold.
If  Papa overheard that remark about "the capricious womb," he'd retort  "Fool that I was to think that real devotion could reform a public  woman."
And  then I would hide somewhere, for that was always the start of a battle.  Mama would scream about Papa's lack of money while he detailed her  infidelities.
* * *
My  god, Mozart, manifested on a beautiful June day, when the sun blazed in  the bluest of skies. Mama hated dancing at garden parties. There were  grass stains and insects, but to children summer was the best party  time. We could run in gardens and make our own ballets and plays. It was  a treat to be out of the hot, smelly streets of the summer city. There  were always other children present, theater brats, just like me. Parties  were an important part of our education, for this was the way we too  would someday earn our bread.
We  could run through great halls or hide behind the tapestries. On bright  summer days, we could romp through gardens big as city blocks.  Unattended food was everywhere. As long as we didn't get in the way,  break or steal, no one cared what we did. The first thing was always to  extract a glass or two of wine from the tray of a passing servant and  share it out. Then, enjoying the pleasantly giddy sensation that  followed, we’d wander out into the garden. 
Prince  Cobenzl owned the best. There were roses, reds, whites and pinks, so  many shades, so many scents, not only bushes, but an entire corridor  lined with rose trees, an amazing sight. Next came a topiary. There we  gawked at dragons, peacocks and rabbits all cut from thick green hedge. 
One  day, rounding a corner, we came up short, for we’d stumbled upon one of  those unnerving adult activities. There stood an aristocratic lady and a  somberly dressed gentleman, embracing across the obstacle of  fashionable dress. Their lips and hands were the only parts in busy and  ardent contact. The man had to be careful not to touch her white  powdered face or he would have caused it to turn blue, a tell tale sign  of kissing.
Their  bodies were distant, for she was in full court dress, the panniers  swelling out on each side in a wave of ivory satin and lace. She  accepted his tribute like a great white statue, one hand caressing his  cheek, the other holding a pink and white parasol over them both.
As  young as we were, we understood that here a basic, underlying rule of  the world had been violated. It was not simply that the lady was married  to someone else. In the Vienna of those days, adultery was the ordinary  way of things. The shocking part was that the Lady was titled, a  Baroness. The man kissing her was a mere musiker, dressed in the plain  white wig and dark livery of a servant. 
Kath  and I were dumbfounded. We knew that noblemen made love to ladies of  any class, but never before had we seen a woman cross the social  barrier. Profoundly unsettled, we ran away as if the devil was in  pursuit. 
Of  all the love-making I saw at parties, this was unquestionably the most  dangerous. The lady had a husband, and the husband, could, with  impunity, kill that trespassing servant. 
* * *
Later  the same day, while the orchestra tuned, we became part of the  anticipating throng in an outdoor amphitheater. For ease of passage, we  slipped hands and made our way separately among the ladies, who, like  ships of silk and brocade, drifted in our way.
The  top step of a newly erected summer pavilion seemed a good place for us.  In a passion for all things classical, Prince Cobenzl had erected a  replica of a little Roman temple. Here we perched, gazing over the white  and silver audience to the red-coated orchestra. From among the  violins, a bow lifted and waved. 
It was Papa. I waved back.
Behind  the orchestra, stood an oak tree, absolutely the broadest I'd ever  seen. Powerful limbs lifted, it was a leafy, bark-armored Atlas. I could  imagine it holding up the sky. One of those large new fortepianos had  been set on delicate walnut legs between the violins. An erect little  man, seemingly not much more than a boy, sat before it. 
This,  I thought, must be the new Kapellmeister, the pianist Wolfgang Amadeus  Mozart, the one Papa liked so much. He wore the same uniform as the  orchestra. 
He  began to play.  The allegro made me smile with pleasure, for it seemed  as brilliant as the day. I was not alone in my pleasure, for among the  audience there were some who threw back their heads. Some even swayed,  as if they wanted to get up and dance. 
Champagne  and joyful music buzzed in our heads. Notes splashed into the air and  fell around in a sparkling cascade. I was carried away, straight into  heaven. The fleecy cloud sheep that had dotted the sky earlier wandered  off. Now the aching blue suffered no interruption, except for the  occasional flash of swallows. His music was a heart, beating inside me.
Suddenly,  my imagination aflame with music and wine, I saw the rough bark of the  great tree shiver. It was breathing and alive, just like me—and that was  when I heard it: 
"Orpheus!"
I looked around to see a face that would acknowledge the words, but met only the questioning gray eyes of Kath.
* * *
The  sparrows made their homes in the ivy and awoke me every morning with  their chatter. I had grown beyond the child's bed in the corner of my  parent's room. Sometimes I could hear them shift and sigh, the bed ropes  creaking. Sometimes there would be an urgent rhythm. I knew the  sound--a cadence, accompanied by sighs. This was the so called  “lovemaking.”
Unlike  any of my friends, I was an only child. Twice, at least, I remember  Mama taking her swollen belly to bed. Mina, a servant who'd been with us  forever, dashed for the midwife and later carried away the bloody thing  in the chamber pot. When I asked what had happened, I was told that my  brothers and sisters wouldn’t stay inside long enough to ripen.
Papa,  the one I loved so much, is harder to remember. I have a miniature, but  the painter was a friend and not a professional, so the skewed portrait  doesn’t much resemble him. What I do remember are moments of comfort,  of a warm lap beside a fire, of an agreeable leathery smell, of hugs,  and scratchy Papa kisses. The clearest memories come in the brown of my  mirrored eyes, or while watching the blurred fingers of a violinist deep  in his art.
As  for Mama, well, she was beautiful but usually unhappy, at least while  she lived with Papa. She lost her place in the Figuranti, and though she  still performed, it was only in the corps de ballet, in mimes, or in  the puppet dances. Even in this narrow sphere, she excelled. Puppet  dances became a particular specialty. I remember people saying that she  did the cleverest "peasant with a basket" they'd ever seen.
Mama  did teach me, and did so with a certain amount of violence. She was  quick to cry "Clumsy!" and slap. Only the fact that I loved what I  learned saved me from complete discouragement. By my ninth year, I was  performing. Mama, assisted by her contacts at Court, got me parts. She  painted my face and saw to my costumes.
Although  she never said much in the way of praise, Herr Franck, Master of the  Figuranti, asked for me almost as much as he asked for pretty blonde  Kath. I came to understand that I pleased him.
My  adoring Papa praised, but he didn't want me in the ballet. Too many  dancers became courtesans instead of wives. He wanted me to have a  respectable life, so he taught me music. All his hopes rested upon my  high, sweet voice. I remember performing for his orchestra friends. Such  nice fellows, for they made us both happy, applauding "Gottlieb's  Little Nightingale."
I'd swell with pride. I can't remember a time when I didn't know the difference between "nightingale" and mere "canary."
Encouraged,  Papa had me sing scales for an hour every day. He also found time to  teach me to read, to write and to figure. He was very demanding, exactly  as if I'd been a son. He paid for me to attend, along with other  musiker children, a teacher of French and Italian, the languages of the  stage.
Sometimes  my parents quarreled about this. Mama, who could barely read-- although  like most performers, she had, by ear, Italian and some French--thought  formal education wasted on a daughter.
"Girls  don't need much. As for her voice, she's a soubrette, nothing grander.  In another year Herr Franck says he'll be delighted to take her into the  Court Figuranti. Even plain as she is, those legs of hers will get her a  man quicker than you can blink."
She couldn't imagine a larger life for me than the one she'd had herself.
* * *
Clothes  and manners have changed. Basset horns have disappeared, and the oboe  d'amore, too. The dainty klavier has metamorphosed into the big, loud  pianoforte.
A  few things do remain the same. The oxen still drag wagons into town,  their great brown and white heads nodding thoughtfully. Sleepy servants  stagger out on errands at dawn. Butter and sugar on my porridge, today  as yesterday, a warm slurry filling my stomach. There are chickens in  the street, sparrows in the ivy, and men and women still break each  other's hearts.
I  look up, half expecting to see Pieter shaving Papa by the tenuous light  of the window. The cat--some cat--curled tight in my lap, the pleasant  creaking warmth of our small smoky stove.
"Nanina, Princess, did you know that Herr Mozart will be at the party tonight?"
After  the party at Cobenzl's, I'd been lucky enough to hear my Orpheus, Herr  Mozart, many times. He could play  prima vista  the most difficult  music, play it better and with more spirit than the composer. He could  take themes and combine them into fugues worthy of old Johann Bach.
At  a party, after only one hearing, I saw him sit down and play a song  from memory. Herr Mozart, my Papa said, was the most learned  Kapellmeister in Vienna.
I  had learned enough to understand why the adults were astonished, but  the excitement I felt when Mozart played centered directly in my body,  not my mind. I wanted to spin for joy when he wove a tune into one of  his cat's cradles of sound.
Though  he seemed hardly more than a boy, when he played he exuded the calm of  absolute authority. Even the most jaded audiences were intimidated by  his manner into polite silence. Listening to him play, I had the odd  notion that this small man was larger than anyone else in the room.  Still, when Papa's friends spoke of Herr Mozart, they weren't always  complimentary.
"Those wigs!"
"Those French suits!"
"Yes. He looks like Baron Zinzendorf’s valet."
"It's  his music that bothers me. Someone should tell him that scholarship is  no substitute for melody. I have indigestion from all those cadenzas."
Papa would generally protest. "Rubbish, gentlemen. Mozart is brilliant; a young Haydn."
"An den Haaren herbeigezogen, Gottlieb. Have you lost your mind?"
"I  couldn't agree more. Mozart's a novelty, just like all these other  keyboard men that besiege the concert halls. He won't last."
"Time will tell," was my father's serene reply. 
* * *
On  this party night I remember so well, all the entertainments were over.  My child's part in a pastoral singspiel was long over. One by one my  friends had waved good-bye. It was very late now, and when my last  companion left, I knew I'd better find my parents. Pelting through a  succession of poorly lit, yawning rooms, I finally discovered few  remaining guests.
Every  surface was covered with a litter of glasses and bottles. It had been a  very successful party, the entertainment well received. The servants  were as tired, and perhaps as drunk, as everyone else. Those who were  devoted to music were here, listening, ignoring their work.
Dancers  stood around the klavier. Silhouettes of lovely legs were visible  through the thin gauze of skirts. Garlands of wilted flowers crowned  their heads. One of them was Mama. A pair of gentleman dandies, peacocks  of color and ornament, kept them company. The men struck poses, too.  Perhaps for the benefit of the onlookers, or perhaps, like the males of  every kind, to intimidate each other.
A  knot of musicians collected around Kapellmeister Mozart. Papa and two  other string players stood by his klavier, instruments in hand. They  were discussing a score. A prima donna, Madame Lange, was present. Her  bejeweled fingers rested familiarly on the brocade of Mozart's shoulder.
The  company was intimidating, but I drew closer. After a few minutes, they  set the music on stands where candles burned with long tongues of flame.  The lowest was for the 'cellist, the higher one to be shared by Papa  and a violist friend. Kapellmeister Mozart seemed to be playing from  memory.
After  a quick one-two-three, they were off into a trio. Mozart’s hands  traveled precisely over the black keys of the fortepiano. Caught in his  net of sound, I had closed my eyes, hearing, seeing nothing else, when a  skirt, weighted with paniers, struck me. Apparently one of the ladies  had stepped back. Full court dress was more than a match for any skinny  child. 
Abruptly,  I found myself sitting on the floor. At my scuffling fall, the music  stopped. There were scattered chuckles. Nearly obliterating me in  skirts, with a monstrous hiss, the lady turned to see what had happened.
"Why,  look! I've downed a nymph." The red mouth in her whitened doll's face  drew into a smile. The lady offered me a glittering hand.
Such egalitarian kindness! Blushing, I tried to rise gracefully.
Profoundly nervous, I dropped a curtsy which I hoped would adequately include all these great personages.
"Frau Gottlieb's little girl, aren't you?" asked the lady. 
I  dropped another curtsy and so did Mama, who had come hastening forward.  I heard her murmur, "You honor us with your kind attention, Madame  Baroness."
Mozart,  seated at the klavier, smiled. "Why, look, Herr Martin," he said to the  gray headed 'cellist, who had watched the scene with irritation, "Here  is Franz Gottlieb's Princess."
What  had my fond Papa been saying about me? Wanting to sink through the  floor, I shot a look in his direction, but Papa, blind with parental  pride, could not see my discomfort. I could feel a wretched blush, that  bane of my life, throbbing into my cheeks.
"Your Papa says that you appreciate good music and that you sing."
These  were his first words to me. There wasn't a hint of condescension or  mockery in his voice. Shy and proud as a cat, I had braced for it.
"I hear all of your music that I can, Kapellmeister."
I remember rocking up on my toes. I absolutely couldn't stop myself. 
Here I was, talking to this magician!
"She clearly has excellent taste. Come here, Princess Gottlieb. Sit beside me."
Mama released me. I wanted to skip, or at least execute a few pirouettes, but I forced myself to walk properly.
When I arrived, Mozart gravely leaned towards me and whispered, "You know, I'm a great dancer myself. I can turn cartwheels."
I remember smiling uncertainly. Tumblers turned cartwheels, but I had never before heard of a Kapellmeister doing such a thing.
The  trio began again. I sat without a single fidget. Even from such a  vantage point, I could see no effort. Contrarily, the more intricate the  piece grew, the more relaxed and dreamy became his expression.
When  the beautiful sound concluded, I went where he pointed, to a  cross-legged seat on the Turkey carpet beside the fortepiano. His  sister-in-law, the wonderful Madame Lange, was going to give the  gathered faithful one final aria.
Modern  opera lovers ask me about this lady, about what her voice was truly  like. I lack the ability to be critical, for Aloysia Lange was another  of my musical idols. Tall and curvaceous, with a voice like spun silk,  she was to me a goddess.
That  night she wore a cream colored court dress. Her long hands flashed with  the offerings of admirers, and her curls, the color of honey, were not  powdered. 
The  last of the Prince's party had been drawn into the room by the trio.  The aria she sang was poignant, all about love in vain. As thrilled as I  was to be there, I could feel sleep sitting heavily on my eyelids.  Sometimes Madame Lange's soft passages were too delicate to be heard  properly in a theater, but here, in this intimate setting, each  exquisite phrase fell perfectly upon the ear. 
By  the end, there wasn't a dry eye in the room, but the piece set the  final seal upon the evening. Suddenly, it seemed, the party was over.
Compliments  were passed, music folded, adieus murmured. All around were bows and  hand clasps. Chins and cheeks were kissed, depending upon affection or  familiarity.
The  musikers were making arrangements to meet in the morning, Sunday, to  play in the Prater. That is, if anyone could will themselves out of bed  by noon…
Then,  I can't remember exactly how it happened, Papa put a hand on the ivory  sleeve of Mozart's jacket and asked a question I thought would stop my  heart.
"Will you hear my little girl sing sometime? Tell me what you think?"
"Gottlieb, dear fellow, you know I don't teach singers."
Papa had already dared as far as was in his nature. There the matter might have rested, except for Madame Lange.
"Oh,  Mozart," she said, "don't be a stump. You  with your endless torrents  of opinion! Have the child sing right now. You and I can tell good Herr  Gottlieb the truth in a wink."
I was wide awake now! I remember every nerve tingling, my heart threatening to leap through the walls of my skinny chest.
Papa  was overwhelmed to have his request so suddenly granted. I could tell  he didn't think this was the best time, but Mama stepped forward, more  than ready to dispose of all Papa’s nonsense about my talent.
"Nanina knows Far From Their Nests. She drives me crazy singing it."
"Indeed?" A sandy Mozart eyebrow arched. Not only was this my favorite aria, but he was the man who'd composed it!
"Well, then, Princess Gottlieb." His blue eyes fixed me. "Will you favor us with a song?"
"Oh  yes—Sir." I bobbed another curtsy.
Through  the windows came the sounds of dawn, of birds rousing. The long white  curtains which hung by the doors blew on a puff of chilly air. Guests  had begun letting themselves onto the terrace, passing away like ghosts.
Once  he'd agreed to hear me, Mozart was all business. First, he took me  through a few scales. In the periphery of my vision loomed my Papa's  anxiety, the boredom of the cellist, and Mama's yawns.
"Ready?"  Mozart asked. Then, not waiting for an answer, he went into the  prelude. I snapped to attention, drew a last deep breath.
Wandering over alien land,
Yearning for peace and happiness,
The gentle turtle dove
Sings her sorrowful song..."
Something  about the way he accompanied me made breathing and intonation obvious. I  floated to the highs; the cadenza poured from my throat, smooth as oil  from a bottle.
Only  at the end, did I dare to look away from him, steal a look at my meager  audience  the Baroness and her servants, Mama and Papa, Madame Lange,  and behind them, the string players. To my huge delight, they were  all--even the 'cellist-- smiling.
Madame  Lange swept forward, cupping my face in her long cool hands. "Very  fine, Liebchen," she said. "Work hard and your dreams will come true."
Mama's  face now wore an expression in which disbelief and pleasure unhappily  mingled. Although this meant expensive singing lessons, something of  hers had been praised.
I didn't have much time to revel, however, for Herr Mozart immediately set another test.
"Madame  Lange has anticipated me. Before I give my opinion, I want one more  thing. Listen to what I play and sing it back. As many notes as you can  remember."
Papa  had often given me this challenge, but Mozart played so many notes  before he stopped! As soon as he was done, I began to sing quickly,  hoping to catch them before memory faded. Many were quite high.
The last one I knew I couldn't hit, so I stopped singing and said, "The last was high F--but I can't get there."
Ceremoniously, eyes sparkling with a kind of brotherly delight, he lifted my fingers to his warm lips. 
"Brava, Princess." 
The  overwhelming salute completed, he turned to my father. "My dear fellow,  I humbly add my opinion to that of my esteemed sister in law. You have  here a fine baby nightingale."
Papa bowed, beaming and speechless.
"But don't send her to Salieri for lessons."
Mozart  stood, stretching his slim frame and yawning. Then, with a knot of  musicians and servants in tow, he and Madame Lange left the room.  Amusingly, The Diva was far taller than the man who escorted her.
Papa  tucked his violin under his arm. We too were on our way. I suppose we  got our cloaks, but I don't remember. What I do remember is dancing and  spinning and twirling until I tripped and fell, skinning my knee. Mama  smacked the top of my head and ordered me to "quiet down."
To  obey was nearly impossible. Kapellmeister Mozart and the famous Prima  Donna Aloysia Lange had both said I would be a singer! Papa, of course,  was jubilant. Typically, he was so good natured about his victory that  not a single "I told you so" crossed his lips.
As  we marched through the palace garden, birds shouted dawn. A pink haze  arched in the eastern sky, but there was still one last, bright star.  Even so close to the rising sun, it blazed. On the joyous echoes of  Mozart's music, my heart flew to the light.
... Continued...
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